AMANDA C;

2008-08-11T23:16:00.003+08:00

I'm not blogging here anymore, blogging somewhere new.
But i'm still going to leave this url..
(:
Relink me if you want to.
Off now. (:

2008-08-04T16:45:00.002+08:00

Damn stress.

2008-08-01T22:55:00.016+08:00

My lappy is back from servicing! :D Like finally? And well, i've a least a million things to blog about. Cut it short, Racial harmony was fun but meiling lost her $200 that day. Damn that person who stole it. I wont let you off okay! @#$%*^ I'll chop you into pieces. And i've watch The Mummy Rise 3, Rise of the Dragon emperor.

It's super duper nice! Go watch it! And one thing i wanna complain about, Causeway's cathy nachos suck. The cheese do not even taste like it. It practically tasted so awful that i was only munching on the chips instead. -.-

Well, Shopping day with denise today at town. And went to take the VS items i've ordered! Bikinis, Clothes, Perfumes and Facial care stuff. Yayyyyyyyy! But only the first parcel came the second one is arriving soon! :D See, shopping makes me happy! More Victoria's Secret items coming up next! But one sad thing, some tops dont fit me. They look so big when their sizes are only tagged S! ): And now, I'm so sick! Fever plus runny nose. )):

Now, Pictures up!

This friendship is not going to end. And we're not getting distance you stupid dumb dumb girl. Wait you see after O levels i'll irritate you like crazy. Absence make heart grow fonder. Stupid girl. (:

Off for now,
doodles! (:

Here's one for you:
Dont say it's your blog and you can write whatever shit you want or it's personal.
Be realistic, no one's blog is personal and can give you the right to type or comment whatever shitty stuff about others.
Tell me right off my face if you are unhappy with what i say that day,
Put my name on your blog if your scolding me.
Since you've said that no one has the obligation to do so,
Then so be it.
Face? Seriously, i dont need it from you.
Blogs are for you to blog about your life,
Not whine and show how great you are in scolding or criticizing people.
Dont tell me you and your click didn talk during that boring lecture.
At least someone msged one of my sisters saying they are noisy so they kept their volume down.
So if you tell me that we're loud, we'll shut our mouths up.
My friends talked loudly and i've asked them to lower their voices already,
They didn mean to be loud okay.
And that continuous shhhhh-ing is freaking annoying alright.
You have the right to say anything, so do i.
Mind you.
Who are you to even comment?
C'mon, you're a teenager and since the english lecture so boring, wont you open that golden mouth of yours and talk or even keep pressing that handphone of yours?
So,
Keep those commets to yourself.
I dont even wanna see or hear about them.
Lame piece of shit.
I'm not going to continue the blog quarreling thing, it's so 3 years old.
And you've havn change since.
You come right to me and tell me off.

2008-07-31T17:02:00.002+08:00

WONT UPDATE SOON.
BUT BUT BUT,
BE RIGHT BACK OKAY! (:
DONT MISS ME!
TOO LAZY TO UPDATE NOW, WAIT TILL I HAVE THE MOOD.
FLUNK MY PRELIMS,
SO GOT TO MUG MUG MUG FOR NOW!
WISH ME LUCK K! (:

i get it with my hardwork,
i'll prove everyone wrong, seriously, i will.

2008-07-30T14:01:00.002+08:00

My laptop has been sent for repair so i cant update. Boo. I'll update this dead blog of mine soon.
Haha. Well, so many pictures and shitty stuff to update once my laptop is back. Wait for my update okay!

2008-07-18T15:15:00.003+08:00

This movie is great! Really nice. Thumbs up. Just came back from the cinemas with junhe, ben, grace and xiang. It really really nice, unless you are not interested in those chinese history about the three kingdom and stuff. But the ending so so stupid, it made all of us so pek cek about it.

And i'm so angry today!
Why are Singaporeans so selfish? Damn it. Made me waste $13.30 to cab to school for one stupid 1 hours exam paper. Fish Fish! @#$%^&*
Why wont just the people move to the back of the bus?! Are their butts that big that they can move in?! URGH.

Phew phew~ Must relax. The moment i think of it, i get so worked up. Roar.
And cab fares are freaking expensive lah! ROAR~~~~

2008-07-18T06:28:00.006+08:00

Yay!
End of Prelim 1! Oh my, only prelim one. :/ SianzZ. Well, i think i'm going to flunk badly for this prelims, although i really hope to improve. ):
O levels coming and i'm panicking. Yet, doing nothing. LOL.
How am i even to pass?! Motivation needed!
And i'm broke, SO BROKE.
Broke due to excessive online shopping and taxi fares.
Damn, taxi fares are so expensive nowadays. Daylight robbery.
I'm off now! (:

I just want to recapture that moment. Just that little moment.
But sometimes, how true.
So near, yet so far. I just cant recapture everything again.

2008-07-13T21:59:00.004+08:00

I know,
But is not that i do not care.
It's about the distance between us.
Silence do mean something,
Not nothing.
Be a little more realistic,
Grow up.

2008-07-11T13:54:00.005+08:00

Just 3 more months.
Graduation.
Time really flies.

I flipped thru the past photos and i see one thing about us:
All grown up now

All changed, grown up teens. ( Except a few.. )
Bonds that we will always have now and forever.

2008-07-10T21:52:00.007+08:00

I'm a year older today.
Offically 16.
And now i'm already looking forward for my 18th birthday. Lol.
Well, thank you guys and ladies for what you all had prepared for me. The effort, money and time spent; Thank you very much. (:
And all the birthday sent by you people, thanks.
Yea, i do not know what else to say further. You should know, Amanda does not show her affections with words. Haha.

I had a mini celebration with the same people on Monday and went to pub for some fun at night. Special thanks: sisters, brothers, friends and aunty.

I do not have much pictures as we didn take much photos that day and some of them are not with me yet. But still, enjoy:

Indeed, Amanda's sweet 16th Birthday.
(:

Ps: Prelims are killing me~

2008-06-29T20:12:00.007+08:00

He's my boyfriend! i wanna marry him!
i wanna go find a guy like him.
* evil grins.
): why doesn Singapore have such hot, clever and cute guy?
all either have a flat nose, small face, small built, petty, too skinny and not man, lousy character, not romantic, boring, not initiative, stingy guys in singapore.
i at least have a million reasons that Singapore guys are not a perfect guy.
SIANZZZ.
i wanna go Korea and America!

2008-06-25T20:54:00.007+08:00

I need to trim my eyebrows. They look so fugly when i take photos. -.- I'm stuck with F&N now, like WHAT THE FUCK. They are driving me nuts! Well, i hate homework and coursework. Stupid shit. My pimples are going to outbreak due to overhomeworking. Lol. And more pimples are going to pop out too. ): And O levels chinese oral is just tomorrow. Boring~ I need to lose some weight from my fatty ass. How depressing.

My untrimmed eyebrows and many freaking pimples. -.-

I want more shopping, but i've decided to stop for a while. Bryan is going to help me save. Hope that i can at least save some money for myself. Eye infection. Stupid shitty ass~~~

2008-06-24T19:23:00.004+08:00

Stress stress stress!
O levels, Prelims driving me nuts! ):
F&N coursework is making me go bonkers too!
SOS please!
LOL.
I'm going half dead.
Blah~
I want a new wallet from coach.
Sianzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

2008-06-22T19:27:00.002+08:00

Alright, school's reopening tomorrow. ):
SIAN. BOREDOM.

My mother even went to prepare steamboat today for celebrate that school is reopening. -.-
Well, stupid enough? Damn, i just spent $500 on online shopping in the VS catalogue today. Shit, say goodbye to my money in my bank. *money flys away* See what happens when i've got nothing to do?

I miss my grace. Stupid girl, go Genting for so many days leaving me alone. And all her buyer are waiting for her! YOU COME BACK YOU BETTER TREAT ME SOMETHING OKAY!

I havn studied a bit yet! DIE.

2008-06-21T00:53:00.005+08:00

I hate to say this but i still have to,
Cause i'm fucking out of cash.
I'm broke~~
Amanda has no bloody money now.
How pathetic and sad.
And whose fault is that?

Blame it on online shopping, especially Victoria's Secret.
Argh, i overspent like fuck~

So, i need help.
Help me advertise my blogshop people?
Or probably buy a few stuff there?
Haha.

AVENUE-OFLOVE.BLOGSPOT.COM

Alright, i sound so pathetic. BOOHOO.

Well, so when school reopens i'm going to starve~ Haha, i need people to sponsor me to eat. WAKAKAKA. Kind souls in school probably? *Grins

Extension next week. Great. Haha. Stupid expensive extensions. I'm being contradicting again. Haha.

School's reopening and i freaking hate it. 5 stupid reasons why i dont wanna school to reopen:

1. I havn get enough of fun.

2. O Levels and Prelims are coming up.

3. I havn start revision.

4. All of the homework given are left UNDONE. I havn done my Food and Nutrition coursework. not even touched. -.-

5. I have to wake up early and get fucking heavy eye bags. WTH.

Holidays are ending soon~~~~ arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

I still havn go to sentosa for some nice tan and play some volleyball. i'm SAD. My wishlist are all not fulfilled.

Anyway, pussycat dolls have a new music video is out: when i grow up.
Hottt~

Many VS stuffs caught my eyes on but i cant buy. ):
Bags, shoes, tops, swim wear everything.
No money, No shopping.
How depressing.

2008-06-18T22:56:00.007+08:00

i want to go sentosa.
i want to eat chee chong fan and pasta now.
who wants to go to sentosa with me? JIO ME OKAY? haha.
i hate menstruation, i cant even go sentosa today. sucker.
studying, studying and STUDYING. seriously i'm BORED. bored to death. ZZZ *SNORES*

i know the pictures are fucking big. but I LIKE IT. haha. luckily CHUARUTING is there to accompany me this week. haha.

my retarded babe.

i'm happy, i bought lots of stuff online. MUAHHAHAA.
but, i'm fucking pissed off by dead buyers.
WHAT THE HELL.
_l_

O levels coming. freaking stressed up. URGH.
I WANNA MIGRATE TO AMERICA.
everyone around me even me seems so obsessed with pokemon game now. LOL.

GRACE TAN I'M FUCKING GOING TO MISS YOU~~~~~~~~
argh, moody~~~~~

2008-06-16T01:57:00.002+08:00

i got so sick of short hair that i went to buy hair extensions.
lol, pretty random and well, it cost me a bomb. :/
big hole in my pocket now.
oh god, give me unlimited amount of cash. $_$
haha.

2008-06-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

oh man, shitty asssssss~

2008-06-13T03:05:00.002+08:00

yourpersonalityisasfakeasPamelaAnderson'sboobs,cantreallybebothered.
-.-

2008-06-11T01:29:00.003+08:00

name 20 people you can think of right now,
Dont read the question until you have named the 20 people.

1. junhe
2. grace
3. bencheah
4. jolene
5. ruting
6. yoketing
7. hanseong
8. meiling
9. qiaohui
10. bryan
11. michelle
12. bennedict
13. linsey
14. mingshuang
15. ryan
16. zhiqiang
17. zixiang
18. naz
19. jessica
20. qingde

1.how did you meet 14?

In school.

2. what would you do if you never meet 1?

i will be short of one wonderful pal of mine. ):

3. what if 9 and 20 dated?

qiaohui and qingde?! COOL! possible you know! (; omg, what a coincidence! haha!

4. what if 6 and 17 dated?

yoke and xiang? HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. LAUGH MY ASS OUT! they will quarrel like some like mad dogs everyday single day!

5. describe 3.

great guyfriend, fun and cute.

6. is 8 attractive?

DUH, c'mon, she HOTTTTTT!

7. describe 7.

lame and blur;total sotong. only one face to give him. -.- and one more: cry baby.

8. known of any 12's family member?

NO. hahahaha. LOL.

9. what would you do if 18 confessed his/her love to you?

brotherly love. what more to say? i love him too! haha. he has a girlfriend already!

10. what language does 15 speak?

ENGLISH AND CHINESE. DUH.

11. who is 9 going out with?

SHE SINGLE BABY. haha.

12. how old is 16?

17 this year.

13. when was the last time you spoke to 13?

this evening during her tuition class with me.

14. who is 2 favorite band singer?

no idea. she doesn have a specific one.

15. would you ever date 4?

if i'm a guy. YEA. haha. i dont being a lesbian jo! (; HAHAHA.

16. would you ever date 1?

haha, i dont mind if he's a little more manly. (;

17. is 19 single?

no, she engaged, getting married soon.

18. what's 10 last name?

chng

19. would you ever be in a rls with 11?

LOL, lesbian? kelly will KILL me. hahaha. she's a great friend to talk to though.

20.3's school?

CCHY.

21. where does 6 live?

i forgot her blk. but it's in woodlands area.

22. what's your favorite thing about 5?

she easily satisfied with simple things and she's got a bubbly personality.

23. have you seen 2 naked?

yes. LOL, sounds so wrong. -.-

i'm lazy to think of asking people to do it.
you can do it if you want.

mingshuang! I'M DONE! hahaha.

kelly's b day celebration tmr. hope it will be fun! (:

i dont wanna be so singaporean-lish. blah~ change me to a american or a chinese mixed blood. haha.

2008-06-10T02:37:00.005+08:00

The Chronicles of Narnia Prince Caspian
oh my god, it's so freaking nice. the show was great. thumbs up. watched this movie at the cathay today with ben, junhe and linsey. how sad, the characters susan and peter are not going to be in the third movie. Ben Barnes (Prince Caspian) and William Moseley (King Peter) are so OMFG handsome!!! i want to marry american cute guys! :D haha. Skyndar Keynes ( King Edmund) is so cute too. but he's only 16. gah, too young. hahaha.

trailer. (:

off to bed now. i'm so tired. it's like 3.36 am now.

2008-06-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

my toe nail just broke. ):
ouch.

2008-06-01T18:40:00.017+08:00

happy birthday yoketing! (:
hope you had fun with us yesterday. love you sister!

alright, i very lazy and tired now because i just upload damn lots of photos. and i'm just going to cut it short here. celebrated yoketing's birthday at sentosa yesterday. and well, WE HAD DAMN LOTS OF FUN. haha.

so now, PICTURES!

on the way there:

SENTOSA ( in random order) :

guys are just so gross.

my babes. haha.

HUNKS?! hahahaha.

lunch time!

DINNER:

the hunks

the babes

DINNER TIME!

he always has that shit face. haha.

and i'll end with this group photo!

LOVE YOU PEOPLE! (:
HOPE YOU ENJOYED THAT DAY SISTER. lotsa love!

2008-05-27T21:14:00.008+08:00

grant me 3 wishes and it would be

1 DO WELL FOR MY DAMN O LEVELS

2 SLIM DOWN ANOTHER 5 KG AND GET A SLIMMER PAIR OF LEGS AND A TONED TUMMY.

3 STAY HAPPY AND CONFIDENT

(:

haha, i'm pretty random today.i've got my VS beach bag today! yayyyyyyyyyy! :D and tomorrow i'm removing my braces! yayyyyyyyyyy! (:

intensive classes are so boring.

2008-05-26T17:58:00.001+08:00

O LEVEL CHINESE WAS SHIT.

i left half a sentence to finish my damn composition and i almost fell asleep while doing paper 2. BLAH~ and now, i'm just back from a swim and now i'm going off to tuition. i'm dead tired! ):

off now! (:

2008-05-25T18:42:00.007+08:00

like finally i went to get a white bikini? haha, went to town with my lovely ladies on the friday to get your bikinis. and well, i got this one. cant help it, i'm obsessed with WHITE. it was pretty much tiring, walking around like crazy. my legs were like aching. but well, worth well. c'mon, what's happier or more fun than going out with my babes? haha. (; the bikini was pretty cheap, only cost $35. haha, what a steal. yoke got hers too. ruting didn find her desired bikini. nevermind. i go search for a CHERRY bikini for her. haha. and i found a VS cherry undies for her. hahaha. cute!

and well, i got something from Victoria Secrets again! i bought this new tote bag. only cost me $58. haha. love this new baby of mine. now, i've got 2 new babies. 2 new VS bags. cool! pretty isn it? haha.

and well, TMR IS O LEVEL CHINESE and i didn even bother to revise. mann, tell me. WHAT IS THERE TO STUDY? haha. and i've been slacking the whole damn day and i'm so bored. gah. i want wednesday and saturday to come soon~ man, i saw someone with the same or similar dress as me. yuck. i'm filled with disgust. not because that i do not like anyone having the same thing as me. but the dress i bought worn on gross people? god, i feel like slapping her with my handbag. and you know what, luckily i'm selling that stupid dress away. hahaha.

GOD.

hahaha.

and also, not forgetting,

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY JOLENE! (:

and lastly:

I WANNA GO GET SOME TAN! i'm so freaking fair now. -.- i think i better go buy some bronzing effect of lotion. haha.

off now babes. smuarks. (;

2008-05-21T20:30:00.005+08:00

i'm sooo happy today! haha, yeap baby. amanda's wire has gone loose today. haha.
BECAUSE, I'M REMOVING MY BRACES FOR SURE NEXT WEDNESDAY! :D and i pampered myself buying this pretty little baby for myself:

and this bloody high class 'plastic' bag cost me $65. and it's already very cheapy. cause i bought it online. and if i were to buy it from the official web, it would cost even more. but well, i'm obsessed with VS. probably you might think i'm stupid or bimbotic( whatever, rolls eyes) , but i feel lingerie, makeup and high heels make women unique. lol.

up next i've got to buy is new bikini. gahh, my pocket is so going to be burnt. great. haha.

and i watched the movie ' what happens in vegas ' and well, i'll rate it 4.5 stars over 5. it's a very cute movie i should say. haha. go watch it. it's niceeee, trust me. (:

sentosa on the 31st of this month! haha, WOOHOO. looking forward to this outing plus celebration for our sexy sister. ;p ~~red bikini~~ STRIPED BIKINI baby? ;p hahahahaha. HOT DARLING! hahahahhaha. i'm totally out of my mind. haha.

mannn, 3 pimples on my face and 5 ulcers in my mouth. ewwww. i hate it. BLAH.

2008-05-17T23:28:00.002+08:00

it's great to have great friends like them. thank you. haha. i'm so sorry to trouble all of you people. (: and probably the first thing i would do when i'm 18 or 21 is move out of my house! LOL. stupid fucking asshole.

anyway, i saw grace's blog today saying the 6 sisters are going to the beach during holidays and my thought straight was:
OMFG, amanda is going to show her fatty ass in the beach for everyone to see and laugh at!omg, omg, OMG! no toned tummy, no toned legs. mannn, WHAT'S THERE TO FLAUNT? ): 1 big damn word stuck on my face: FAT.

BOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO.

and i need to get a new bikini. i want one from victoria secret! :D

2008-05-16T21:51:00.009+08:00

oh my god, i'm so freaking tired right now. just came back from tuition and my muscles are aching. and that shows that i've not been exercising. only a few hours of volleyball session after school today made me so tired. blah~ urgh, the sports carnival today was such a pain. and it was super boring. we were not allowed to walk anywhere we like. and our class tee made us super duper outstanding. but my class tee was far nicer compared to the rest. :p haha.

had my O levels f&n practical exam on thursday and i managed to whip with some crappy dishes in time. but but, my chocolate tart didn freeze in time. mannn, damn it! i was unable to slice it into pieces, and so, i had to serve the whole bloody portion. -.- and the gnocchi was in a mess and i had trouble making it into oval shapes when i was like kneading it. i brought about 8 potatoes when i only need like 4. ( which is like half of it) -.- and i ending up spending soooooo bloody ass time boiling the potatoes, which obviously wasted so much of my precious time and the additional equipment. like what the fuck, WHAT THE FUCK?! i rushed all my remaining 2 dishes up within 1/2 hour which i feel was kinda dumb.and my equipments were all over the table and i had like a mountain of used equipments unwashed. -.- the process of cooking was kinda disastrous but the ending was kinda okay. at least, AT LEAST, i see something. haha, something to encourage myself at least? lol, at least i do not deemed myself to the end with negative shitty stuffs. LOL. alright, and i'll show you people my tedious and tasty ( i suppose?) dishes. haha. and you know what, ben ate 3/4 of the whole chocolate tart. and he's crazy. cause he kept smiling after every bite of my tart. LOL.

macaroni and cheese

pasta stuff capsicums

gnocchi

chocolate tart

and we were pretty out of your minds this week. went party world to sing 2 days in a row and well, the punishment of me having too much fun?

A BAD SORE THROAT AND A BLOODY SPLITTING HEADACHE. ):

well, nevermind. i've got lots of fun at least. haha.

and here i am supposed to do my f&n coursework but i'm so bored and i get distracted so easily i came blogging instead. haha. alrighty, back to C/W now! (:

i saw things i should not see today. ;p haha.

2008-05-12T20:02:00.004+08:00

xoxo; AMANDA

f&n coursework is simply killing me and i'm so not in the mood to do any homework right now.

YAY, my mamma is coming back tomorrow. kinda miss her nagging for the past days. haha. and i managed to save my brownie cake for mother's day somehow. haha. (;

2008-05-11T22:13:00.004+08:00

when i have really nothing better to do, this happens: haha.

i just screwed up the cake for mother's day. -.-
#$%^&*%#
):

2008-05-11T16:37:00.014+08:00

ALRIGHT, here i am. BACKKKKK! (:
i have so many things to update about. gosh. one event after another. let the pictures do most of the talking. here it goes!

FISRTLY: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!

the celebration was held at hanseong's house.we had steamboat there. well, it was pretty tiring preparing and clearing up. lots of work done and fun. had rounds of true or dare. pretty lame but it's fun and hilarious. stupid dares were given and yes, we had lotsa fun. :D played 2 rounds of ice and freeze with them after. man, they are all pretty fast ruunners. except me, i'm like sooooo slow. -.-

raine yang? haha. ROFL.

arguing with the guys about her dare.

she still did it in the end. yim yoke ting is a muscular women. hahaha.

haha, my sister is so SHY.

she blessed with 2 lovely ladies kisses. haha.

6 disney princesses.

wonderful people, trusting friends, loving sisters, great brothers and everlasting friendships.
without them, there would be no memories and fun. (:

happy birthday sister!

hope you like what we had planned for you qiaohui. we'll be always be for you whenever needed. love you! (:

alright, met up with yoketing, ruting, ben and junhe on the saturday night to slack. waited for the 2 boys for a freaking long time and got us super pissed off. GRR. and they ended up ton-ing at my house. shared some stupid hair-standing ghost stories at my house around mid-night and obviously it freaked the girls out. -.- went to study in the library with the 2 girls till about 9 plus and went to meet junhe, ben and hanseong for drinking at hanseong aunt's at 11pm. the aunties were so cool and young? lol. cabbed home at 4 am and i'm fucking tired now. dont wanna elaborate further more. stupid things happened there. -.- and seriously, ben's suck in drinking! haha.

he cant stop sleeping. -.-

anyway, picture of me with my new spectcles! (:

PRESENTING:
6 PRINCESSES (:

ps:
i'm singapore's best hair stylist! :D benedict new hair stylist is me! hahahahaha.

cute isn it? HAHAHAHAHA.

off to do coursework now!

2008-05-07T19:34:00.003+08:00

OMFG, my blog is soooooo BORING~
yawns*
what should i do about it?
delete my blog? change my stupid retarded url or just leave it to rot forever? haha.
my life is so like a repetition everyday. boredom.

celebration for qiaohui's birthday tomorrow. so maybe tmr post would be slightly more interesting i suppose?
and the preparation was tough, cutting the damn prawns, slicing the meat and cuttlefish and stuff. oh my god, and i totally smelled like a fish. A STINKY SMELLY HUMAN FISH. haha. and the damn prawns pricked my hand so many times. stupid prawn.

and one bloody big news, i gained 4 kg. OMFG. 4 fucking freaking kg?! what the fuck did i eat? too much junk food. T.T lose weight, lose weight! ): and there's still steamboat tomorrow.

OMG, I'M DYING FROM A HEART ATTACK.

and 1 more thing,
science practical today was stupid. like what the hell was the physics practical all about? -.-
chemistry? oh well, i just mixed all the solutions together. haha. luckily the lab didn explode because ben and i were in the same lab. haha.

off to bathe now, byeeee!

happy birthday:
hanseong and qiao hui! (:
love you two sooooo much!
kill two birds with one stone ;) haha.

2008-05-05T00:01:00.002+08:00

reminiscences; thank you so much.
and yet, it's just another day. (:

2008-05-04T18:45:00.015+08:00

I'M REAL HAPPY TODAY. :D

i dont know why. beats me. maybe i stayed at home and rot for 2 days or i should say didn meet up with anyone for this 2 days and i feel damn good about it because it's a big accomplishment? lol, hilarious. i'm been staring at my laptop for the past 3 and a half hour, looking at my undone food and nutrition coursework and until now, it still UNDONE. lol. and i didn do much amendments to it. i ended up going to youtube and watch some crappy videos in there. man, online entertainment always divert my attention. and now, it 7 pm and i've yet to finish even half of my c/w. goodness me. and i'm right here, BLOGGING. -.- haha.

and finally, dinosaur years later. i made a new pair of spectacles. haha. ohwell, it's black in colour, full frame and the same of my lens are ... well... pretty weird i suppose. my mother thinks it's fashionable? HAH. oh well, whatsoever. i look nerdy in whatever specs i wear. *grins*

and well, somethings have been bothering me so much lately. thought about it last night, and seriously, i spent a whole night reflecting. and well, i'm going to type whatever i thought here.

i'm going face it, enjoy what i have now. stay positive and look on the bright side of my life. i dont wanna broad over it everyday. it's not going to change either. like my health is going back to normal if i cry or go super distracted all the time and bothers me like crazy. i'm going back to who i was last time. no more sadness, no more distractions, no more emo-ing ( pretty dumb actually) , no more of my stupid fucking attitudes to anyone who doesn deserve it. i'm satisfied with my life now ( except with my results, haha. ) , family problems aside, i'm choosing to ignore whoever or whatever obstacles that me making me upset. i cant stand myself being this way all the time, everytime, because something stands in my way. i go so depressed that the world's ending and i go back to square one. i love fun, i love being crazy and suddenly, i do feel i'm losing all these fun i have in myself. i love changes, but i do not like this change in myself. i becoming a different me lately. i'm becoming way too sensitive, way too bad-tempered. and i didn realise until i didn reflections last night. and i dont like that at all. and i'm trying to change back, or maybe into a better person.

and sometimes, i do want to express out how thankful i am towards the people around me. i have great friends, great sisters, a great girlfriend, great boy-friends around me who guides me, understands me, helps me and even go crazy and stupid with me. not everyone has great people around them like i do. and sometimes, i do feel i'm taking them for granted due to some stupid negative thinkings i have at times. and i dont express it out. sometimes, i do need some closure. but maybe i cant find a right person. or maybe there is a right person, but not the right time. or aint the right situation.

and one quote knocked myself deeply from junhe's blog post:
the fact that the world is unfair, makes life meaningless.

yes, i do agree, the world is unfair, but it doesn make life meaningless. i still have what most important in my life. friends, family and my own target, my goal, i still what whats with or in me. i believe, god bring me here for a reason. i have a reason i live in this world. probably, i dont know what is it yet. there's always ups and downs in anyone's life. and i believe maybe right now, this is one of the bumps i'm encountering with. and so many images of the past flashed in my mind last night. happy, sad, crappy memories, all in my mind. and i do miss all of that kinda shit. and yet now, because of this problem. i'm about to lose it all. and i'm not going to let this happen. everyone has problems and i know some of us aint feeling good about it. i'm lousy in comforting people. i suck in that, blame it on my mother. i dont have the comforting people genes. (:

but still, presenting to some of my sisters who were facing some relationship problems, and whoever who is sad, troubled or super irritated and myself of course :

alright, i know it's ugly. i drew it in paint. what more you expect?! haha.

okay, this post of mine looks like a composition. -.-

and something really random:
a really sweet and cute way of confessing your love:

i wanna be- chris brown dedicate this song. (: sweeeeeeeeeeeeet!
guys, stop with old and boring ways of confessing. i love you, can you be my girlfriend? i really love you. pluck what crap stars and moon for her.
walao. try something new can. -.- YAWNS. hahaha.
;P

2008-05-02T20:22:00.004+08:00

is this the challenge i have to face that god gave me?
but why me, why me?
all along destined?
i do not want to face it, i do not want to accept the fact, at all.
all i want is just longer time.

i dont want, i dont want, i really dont want it to be on me.
i'm afraid.

2008-05-01T20:52:00.003+08:00

linsey made my day a wonderful one today. (:

i want so many tops from Victoria Secret! i'm going to start saving now! shopping spree coming up next! (: woohoo!

2008-04-28T22:27:00.003+08:00

i broke my specs, my flats are spoilt, my bag pack is torn, i have to do 3 refunds and my online shopping mailing stuffs seem to have all disappeared. -.-

man, what a day.

2008-04-26T22:24:00.019+08:00

finally, group outing again! (: hip hip hurray!

celebration of ABCHK's best friend(yim yoketing), MR KAY HANSEONG. haha, not as big group as before but still,there's still hell lots of fun! alright, headed to summerset to eat at sakura. but before that, there was a dua pai kia, mr ONG JUNHE who was late for an hour and made ALL of us waited for him. *roll eyes* and we managed to reach there at 2pm and we were told they were going to clear the food at 2.30pm and so, we had only 1/2 an hour to take the food. and seriously, we all were super kia su. haha. look at the amount of food we took once we reached there in just 10 mins.

and the thing is, this is only 2 tables of food. we had 3-4 tables lah, just imagine the amount of food on the tables. LOL. and obviously, we had our buffet master, wu qingde there. wakakaka. practically, he paid $26 but i think he ate at about $100 amount of food? HAHAHA. ROFL. yea, and i said in my previous post i'm going on diet and i ended up going for a buffet. oysters, yam paste, cakes, sushi, fried food = UNHEALTHY & FAT . i gave you so much face okay hanseong! (:

eat like crazy. omg, i'm feeling so guilty lahhhh. :/

happy birthday! (:

he looks like he's punching my face. -.- WALAO!

how passionate man, a couple of gay. GOUPLE of the day.

gays influencing more gays. -.- poor birthday boy. HAHAHA.

bennnnn! (:

he's so freaking tall that i cant capture his hair. -_____-

ben's future job.

happy birthday boy!

my love for you cant be expressed girlfriend. (: (god, sounds so wrong. haha. )

:x HAHAHAHAHA.

i like the effect!!! :D

finally you doll up lah sister. (:

much loves.

went to watch this movie after buffet. stupid movie, stupid story line. and worst, it's not even horror movie can although it claimed to. more like teaching children to be violent. -.- stupid 2 hour show, freaking draggy and the ending was like -.- ? lol.

my leg hurts now. :/ blisters all over.
hope you enjoy today hanseong (:
although i know you wont be seeing my blog either. -.- lol.

2008-04-25T22:28:00.002+08:00

the one i've never even expected ended up consoling me.
rather surprised, but still thank you. (:
and one thing i'm very sure of now,
at least in school, at least, i know there's a group of crazy women who cares and tolerates me although we bicker over stupid stuffs.
love you sisters. (:

walao, O levels is nearer. ):
graduation, sometimes i want it faster and sometimes i dont.
i'm going to miss my friends and cliques, like some crazy arsehole. too much memories engraved in there.
and great, i need not see that freaking teacher's fucked up face after graduation.
gahhh, contradicting.

i want tomorrow to come faster, i want FUN.
HAH.
sounds pretty desperate. :/ lol.
off now,
bye.

2008-04-24T19:09:00.005+08:00

i never ever felt so miserable before.
every smile i tried to show ended up making me feel much more heartache.
i just cant help it.
is not that i do not want to open my doors, always aint the right time and not everyone understands.
i want to be just alone for just today.
i'll open the doors once i've adjust myself.
forgive me my friends.

stop it, whiny arse. cant take it? STFU and move it.
freaking school, freaking teacher, freaking everything.

2008-04-23T20:58:00.003+08:00

i want 賀軍翔!
he's so hot!
(: he is my new HOT boyfriend!
i want to fly to taiwan right away lahhhhhhhhhh.
phew! he's hot isn it? haha.

2008-04-23T17:58:00.003+08:00

i fucking need to lose weight!!! ):
i am not just going to complain this time, i'm going to do something about it SOON. yeap yeap, cause people are bound to get frustrated with me only complaining about my size and not doing anything thing about it. freaking stupid. haha.
i might try to get some motivation to go to the gym more frequently. yawns*

i hate menstrual cramps. oh god, it sucks. i hate hate HATE IT to the coreeeeee! :/ i feel so tired, i get so pissed off easily when my menstruation comes . and the worst was, i had my 2.4 km napfa run today. timing wasn what i expected myself to get. BLAH~ fuck it!

i so bored and i'm super tired now. YAWNS* i keep oversleeping every morning and also sleeping in class for this week. and thats BAD. i've got to catch up with the lessons soon. and i'm removing my braces by the end of next month, thats what the dentist said today. (: great!

i'm off to sleep now, although it's only about 7 plus. gahhh, bye for now! (:

good night!

2008-04-22T20:33:00.017+08:00

people are so plastic. i hate them. stupid brainless people.
fuck shit! @#$%^&#*
and yes, a number of people made me soooooo upset today. they never ever spare a thought for people or i just directly say, ME!
i hate youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu people! YES, everyone of you who made me super upset, DISAPPOINTED AND FREAKING ANNOYED.

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRR. GO AWAY SICKENING PEOPLE!

SHOOOOOOOO!

and i seriously can see unwillingness lahhhhhh. -.- nonsensical stupid fucked up reasonings. FUCK YOU! so artificial. plastic, PLASTIC , PLASTIC !

no doubt, i'm really really really really really not in a mood to entertain such stupid matters and stupid thinkings of stupid people, which means, i'm freaking angry!

because you say one thing and you do another. make no freaking sense! no sense! freaking no sense okay!

~~great friend?~~ i'm disappointed. dont bother explaining.

you made your stupid choice so dont bother asking me dumb questions okay!

i'm petty, so i aint forgiving. so you people are not forgiven. end of question.

FULL STOP.

and today's conclusion after that matter, if even best friends can betray your trust and promises. who can we trust? no one?
quarrels doesn make one sad, it quarrellings with people whom you actually love and care for disappoint you. that is what make one upset. i see one scene today i've never seen before that made me aware of how fragile everyone is. i feel sad, and too, sad for everyone who were affected over this.

and too, i see how practical people can be, their comments, reaction and everything. and seriously my answer is just 6 words: OH WELL, WHAT CAN I SAY?

I'VE LEARNT AND SEE THE REAL THING IN EVERYONE TODAY. everything before was REEL, not REAL.

): i hate people who upset me. gahhhhhh.

i want to eat EAT AND EAT! (:
satisfy my cravings puh-lease!
buffet! this saturday with them. yay! :D
and i slept thru-out geography lesson today, talked for the 2 periods of mathematics lesson, pon-ed english class. :/ gahhhhh, dead meat. ): i want to study lahhh! and i'm like so tight on cash lately. BOOHOO.

i love this song! (: i'm not in love but i feel like falling in loveeeee after watching that show! sweet! smuwarks. haha.

2008-04-20T22:34:00.009+08:00

alright, here i am, since someone was wondering why i didn blog about the curry bolly sari event- church event. i am really tired now, cause i've just came back from shopping with my aunt and mother. so i wont be talking much. so, LET THE PICTURES DO THE TALKING. (:

(:

great friend. (:

this is the amount we spent on shopping today. :D haha, i'm very tired and sleepy now. so i'm off to bed! byeeeee! (:

opps, and my basketball boyfriend. gahhhhhhh. i want, i want larrrrrrrr! haha. insanity. amanda's wire has gone loose. lol.

NIGHT!

2008-04-19T23:32:00.002+08:00

yay, i finished 鬥牛要不要 in a day!
:D

I WANT A HANDSOME AND A BASKETBALL BOYFRIEND! hahaha.
lol.
really random.

2008-04-16T22:29:00.001+08:00

half dead.
gahhhhh, really tired this time.

if god would give me one wish,
please, rewind time.

2008-04-09T21:56:00.005+08:00

BLAH~ i'm sick. ):
BOOHOO. sore eyes and flu. oh great.
i hate being sick. i hate it i hate it i hate it! i cant wear my contact lens, my eyes are so red. and i look so tired like some kinda living dead zombie right now. i wanna someone to lean on right now. ):

i'm feeling so tired lately. tsk. i dont like seeing myself like this, feels like a weakling. and i feel so sensitive this while. and well, i feel like killing people when i feel so upset. violent amanda probably? yea yea, too much god of war. well, i'm am upset. over something i aint even sure of. i question myself why i'm being so upset about it and it leaves me with no bloody answer. oh well, nonsensical shit.

and seriously, school is SHIT. the vice principal suck. oh, stupid and lame school rules. morning detention. sitting on the parade square for the whole dam day, wasting precious time of mine. not learning anything in school when we are supposed to. oh fuck. $%^&%^ and the bloody reason is actually we choose not to run to the parade sqaure by 7.25. like wtf reason is this?! it doesn even make sense. they must well tell us school starts at 7.15 like before. crap shit. URGH. this is certainly pissing me off. stupid mentality. dumb and brainless freaks .

i'm not concentrating on anything now. man, studies are super important now and i'm starting to neglect it. fuck shit. i want and need motivation. i'm not into anything now. no sports, no music, no academic. no RESULTS. sounds pretty pathetic. god, i'm supposed to be participating in the music competition this year but i'm NOT. BLAH. i'm sounding so lousy larrrrr.

BUCK UP AMANDA!

2008-04-04T21:32:00.011+08:00

i've been so tired lately. :/ probably i've been far too crazy in school lately. haha, kinda retarded. shopping and online sooo much recently. roar. i want more! and i've set my eyes on these gorgeous tops and i'm going to get them real soon. haha. shopping never ends. :D I'M SUPER IN LOVE WITH THE LV WALLET!

ohhhhh, stupid shit, i 'pulled' my thigh muscle while playing volleyball. it hurts right now. BOOOHOO. how dumb of me, i forgot to warm up before playing. -.- and i think i'm super addicted to PSP games right now. ohwell, stupid PSP. it made me so obsessed with it now until i forgot to take my wallet with me after recess because i left it around one of the stall and ruting took it for me. *phew* but i believe i am going to get bored of it soon. *yawns* haha. because i hate it the most when i'm talking to people who are playing PSP, and do not response to me or just nod their head when i say things pretending that they are listening when they ARE NOT. roar. *shoots them all down* haha. (:

homework, revision and coursework piling up. 6 more months and O levels are coming. Sabrina Tan got contracted with chicken pox and no social studies lessons for the whole of 2 weeks i guess. nothing new to learn again and more practice paper. sian.

oh man, migraine and the pain on my thigh is killing me. ):
off to bed now.
byeeeeeeeeee!

i happen to hide everything of me perfectly.
best solution, i hope?

2008-04-01T20:32:00.004+08:00

oh pimple pimple please go away.
i'm fainting whenever i look at the mirror.
):

something to cheer me up,
coming up next week for me..

FACIAL!!!

YAY! (: great, i love facials!

it's so funny, i tricked so many people today. * evil laughter*
muahahahahahaha. :D
HAPPY APRIL'S FOOLS DAY DUMB DUMBS! HAHA. (:

2008-03-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

Baby, I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the seed
With you and God who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
Proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away
From this cold and mixed up world

Chorus:
I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life
Without you here with me
'cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me
'cause I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life
Without you here with me
'cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
'cause years before I became who I am

Baby, you were my man
Know it ain't easy
Easy loving me and
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny, I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you sometimes makes me wanna cry
I realize all my blessings
I'm grateful to have you by my side

Every time I see your face, my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love, to hold
To feel, to breathe, to live you
Dangerously in love

Dangerously
Dangerous, dangerously in love with you
Oh, I love you
I love you, love you, love you, love you, love you
I love you
Oh yes
I love you
I love you, love you, love you
I love you, love you
Love you
I love you
I love you, I love you
I love you
Dangerously in love

dangerously in love; beyonce (:

shoot you, murder you, chop you, slice you, slap you, beat you, strangle you, kill you.
probably the last thing i would do is to smile to you or to even face that face of yours. i just cant even bring myself to open my mouth and TALK.
URGH. i'm an emotional freak right now. everything is just so freaking uncomfortable. i rather not see, not hear anything at the first place.

and well, true enough. i'm feeling moody right this very moment. so, what the workshop told me about my personality was super true. moody, depressive, critical, randomness, rash, demanding, argumentative attitude, attempts too much at once, not expressive, not complimentary, likes to compare, dislikes routine, not sociable towards people i do not know well, resist changes. horrible enough? but, there's always a good side of everyone, and obviously i do have some lah. haha. i'm accurate, analytical, careful, fact finder, loyal, creative, perfectionist, good listener, understanding, steady, patient, possessive, direct, systematic, talented, feels the need to correct the wrong, strong willed, problem solver, independent, purposeful, decisive. and i'm unique, i've got 3 personalities combined and my own personality. and my mother wonders how i'm going to get married with such horrible and terrible bad personalities i have. HAH. pity my future boyfriend/ husband. poor thing.

2008-03-28T21:50:00.003+08:00

agony, pain.
show me some directions.

it sucks being a nice person.
stupid shit.

2008-03-27T20:43:00.001+08:00

is a tree considered a tree without it's leaves and branches?

2008-03-26T21:01:00.008+08:00

CLICK TO ENLARGE

sick and crazy people again. -.- this time, using my photo as and pretending to be them self in their friendster account. like what the fuck is wrong with them? and i'm finding who is the person who actually stole my photo and use it as hers.so, i need help people. (: be kind and help me find out who the hell she/he ( i suppose?) is. it's so super duper irritating. and i just wondering, why cant she be proud of her own face and post her photos up and go seduce other guys from friendster instead? how can she use my photo without my permission?! it's so bloody fucking rude! bloody morons.

i'm losing my voice and you know what?

it SUCKS RIGHT TO THE CORE. i cant laugh too loudly cause no sound comes out from my mouth and i cant scream or sing. and that is terrible. i sound like a man somehow now and obviously, it's not a compliment. lol.

I MISS MY LONG HAIR... i want my long long hair back fast! ):

boohoo, short hair sucks. alright, i've rant enough. lol.

bye people. motivation camp is just tommrrow and i bet it's going to be way boring. awww~

2008-03-19T21:39:00.001+08:00

someone,
define love to me.

2008-03-18T22:34:00.004+08:00

watched the leap years today.i know, it's already pretty long... but, ohwell. the show wasn kinda as nice or as touching as i expected it to be. others were like telling me how much tears they shed over this show. but i would rather say it was kinda blah~ an average movie, not very very nice either. but there were quotes said in the movie that i find super meaningful. and i find it super cool to love someone whom you only meet once in every 4 years.

i'm going to be super busy this week and probably next week too. will update soon. (:

it is not the stars to hold our destiny but ourselves.

2008-03-16T11:08:00.025+08:00

I'M BACK FROM MALAYSIA! (:

did you people miss me? bet you did. haha.

the trip was kinda boring~ there wasn any shopping malls nearby there. ): BOO. so, it was kinda like a trip for relaxing than shopping. and i was practically stuffing myself with food all the time for the past 3 days. -.- my diet always starts tomorrow. alright, i'll just let the pictures do all the talking. i'm super lazy to elaborate here. haha.

dinner for first night:

see how much food was that? god.

see? they can never stop eating. look at the size of my cousin. and the average number of durains ate by one person.

jacuzzi with my aunt.

i look so much older than him although me both are the same age..

morgan's lookalike. hahaha.

look at my baby brother. haha. he's holding onto a 6 pounds bowling ball.

school's reopening tomorrow! YAY! haha.
homework is piling up and i havn even touched any of them. oh no. got to go! (:
i miss my outings with my sisters, girlfriend and brothers!
andddd,
i love guys who gives surprises.
haha, i know, kinda random.

2008-03-09T18:43:00.007+08:00

GOODBYE LONG AND BEAUTIFUL HAIR...

AND HELLO TO SHORT AND UGLY HAIR.

OMFG. my long hair is gone. and so is my fringe.

alright, my mother forced me and brought me to the salon to cut. and obviously, it turned out disastrous. -.-

so from this (before) :

to this shit hairstyle.

like what the fuckkkkkkk. #$%^&**&^%$# i look like some kind of retarded ass. MY GOD. and the back of my hair is straight. fucking STRAIGHT. MAN, THIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY. GOODNESS. i miss my old hair.

)))))))))))))):

and oh, this was all tks to the stupid meet the parents session on friday. alright, the meet the parents session for me seriously SUCK. whatever shit that came out of mdm teo's obviously came out and definitely it drove my mother crazy. i shall not elaborate more. cause it's alsofuckingtely dumb. and so my crazy mother told me to change my appearance and be more presentable which resulted in this stupid hair cut. oh, like what the fuck is my behavior and results related to my hairstyle? -.-

man, i'm dying from a heart attack people. oh hair, please grow, grow, GROW~

alright, i'll drop this hair subject. it's making me super depressed. lol. went to PHS fair yesterday with the same old group plus alfred's clique. oh well, the fair was rather boring and there wasn much things to do. people there were not exactly in the really fun mood especially junhe. :/ cheer up brother. the games were limited and expensive and and food wasn very nice either. hah. left the fair early and headed to watch the eye.

this show definitely freak me off. not just me, sisters and some of the guys were freak off by some scenes. and i guess i only watch 2/3 of the show as 1/3 of the movie, i was covering my eyes with my hands. oh well it's kinda stupid. and i've got no idea why fengrong wasn even freaked out by the frightening parts at all. -.- he just sat beside me, like some kinda act cool person predicting what was going to happen next. -.- and zixiang could actually sleep in the movie? HAHA. the storyline was exactly the same as the chinese version one. it was rather a nice movie, except it's a little short. only a 1hour and 15 mins show. but the ending was kinda blah~

oh, and holidays are here now. not really happy and looking forward to it. hardly have time to meet up with my beloved sisters and girlfriends, the noisy and fun boys and boyfriend is off to camp and thailand for the entire week. and i'm going off to malaysia on the 13-16th. i'm going to miss you girls and guys badly. dont miss me too much people! (: will be back with more pictures in malaysia.

random: the bitching behind us better stop. dont think we dont know what you said behind us. the stupid and untrue things you've said had came to our ears okay. dont shed crocodile tears. it's pathetic.

2008-03-04T20:15:00.011+08:00

shopping, shopping and MORE SHOPPING DAYS.

hahaha, i'm in loved with shopping and i just cant stop. oh god, would someone just control me? haha.2 days in a row out with ruting and i spent hundred plus dollars on shopping on saturday and sunday afternoon.

and now, i'm broke. offically broke. all thanks to my dear chua ruting. i actually had my mind set to only buy 2 tops, however, if only we were to spend $100 and above we get a lifetime membership. and obviously ruting was so interested in the member card. and obviously she managed to bluff and persuade me into getting another top and i spent a total of $70 in that shop called SIXTIES. *round of applause for chua ruting for her great achievement* luckily there was 20%-50% discount or else it's really going to cost a bomb. hahaha.

but there's goes my money and my pocket is burnt with a big BIG hole now. ): so i'm going to find someone to 'yang' and feed me for this entire week. guess my boyfriend has to do his job now to feed me. :X wakakakakaka.

but but but, i forgot. my diet starts today. ): * cover eyes, sees no good food* guess i'll go fasting with bryan for 2 weeks. haha. perfect idea. i need to slim down. i'm putting on hell lots of weight and i need to slim down.

support me people!
jiayou amanda! (:

got a new phone from dad. hahahahaha. w910, red in colour. although it isn my dream phone... but oh well. better than nothing. hahaha. and stupid yoketing keeps reminding me to take good care of my new phone. she's more concern for my phone rather than i am. -.- lol.

JOHOR BAHRU FOR MY HONEYMOON NEXT TIME?
oh, god bless.
hahaha.

2008-02-29T21:46:00.024+08:00

DRUM ROLLS PLEASE...

HEREBY PROUDLY ANNOUNCING A WONDERFUL NEWS...

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..

...

....

AMANDA HAS REVIVED FROM DEATH!
AND SHE'S BACK WITH A BETTER AND HAPPIER HER. (:

wakakakaka, alright, alright. enough of my nonsense. i'll spare everyone from my stupid crap. but still , thank you so much sisters and my friends who have been by my side all this while.

oh god, there's far too much thing i've got to update on. well, chinese new year, grace's celebration, junhe's celebration, common test week and the absolutely stupid happenings that happen for the past 2 weeks.

oh well, i guess i'll skip all of those i've promised to update on and i shall just update about junhe's birthday since i'm super tired now. * my legs are aching badly*

oh well, before that. i'm feel so busy and really tired for the whole of this week. i dont know why, despite the fact that i didn really study much. :/ and well, i've got myself a part-time job. and i'm working as a tuition teacher coaching on a primary five school girl. hahaha.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?

mannn, i cant believe for myself at first. with the fact that i aint good at teaching at all. or to be exact, my studies suck and yet i've got a parent who is willing to hire me to teach their child. but well, i'm going to help and coach her as much as i can. and i'm going to prove the whole bloody world wrong and actually i fact, i can study.

hahahahahaha.

going back to the topic which i wanted to blog about..

MR ONG JUN HE'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION.

guess i shall not elaborate much. it's rather dumb for me to tell you guys what really happen. -.-
so it's just a simple celebration with the same old guys and lovely ladies at vivo. ate at secret recipe and slacked and played in there till about midnight. and the most retarded thing was, we missed the last train and last bus back. oh man, fuck it. and that left us with no choice but the take the night rider ALL the way back to yishun as the cab fare was far to costly and sure it's gonna burn a hole in my pocket. and guess what, i reached home at about 3.30 am. -.- but since it was my beloved 6 years friend birthday...

oh well.. hahaha. (:

alright, i'll let the pictures do the talking. i'm lazy right now. hahaha.

happy birthday handsome! (:

part of the boys. (:

awwwwww... real sweet.

sisters are loved.

slight resemblance ?

money face freak.

my one and only boyfriend. (:

ending picture. (:

oh, i forgot.
my common test results suck real badly. i didn really concentrate well this time. :/ gonna start pushing myself i guess. haha.

i know,
it's very random. hahahahaha.

i'll update real soon people.
BYEEEEEEEEE!

2008-02-18T22:07:00.003+08:00

will be right back.
give me some time people.

allow me to clear the mess i've made,
untie the knot in my heart that has been for there the past 9 months.
i've learnt my lesson,
i've cried it all out loud today.
i cant bear to let go,
but i know if i dont,
it aint do me any better.
time is going to be my medicine, i hope.
i didn know loving someone was so difficult,so painful, so heart aching...
my sweetest dreams and my worst nighmare i've ever had.
tears have flown out from my eyes non stop,
and my heart still aches so badly.
i'm far too tired to persist on,
i'm hurt too badly.
and i'm going to leave now for good,
but never doubt my love for you previously,
i apologize for able to express my care for you well,
because i didn know how.
sometimes i've really thought of talking to you,
but now i guess this aint the solution as its not going to help either.
i'll just stop giving myself false hopes and lie to myself anymore,
as i see the truth with my own eyes now.
give me time to accept the fact and handle it well.

xoxo,
amanda

misery, sorrow.
i cant take it anymore.

2008-02-16T16:21:00.003+08:00

i just cant help it being this way.
dont ask me why.
i dont know for myself either.
give me time, give me space to breathe.
i'll be back soon.
wait for me.

2008-02-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEEPS. (:

will update soon people. busy for the whole of this week. coming updates on:

` CNY celebrations and grace's birthday

the most ridiculous thing happened in CNY this year and a series of unexpected events happened.

and..

I GOT VERY LITTLE ANGPAO MONEY THIS YEAR.
))))):

alright now, off to bai nian. wakakakaka. (:

2008-02-05T21:13:00.000+08:00

i'm not in a mood to elaborate on my blog today, oh well. too many unhappy and unexpected things happen to me at one go. probably i didn learn how to handle things well, and i begin to throw my tantrums lately. i'm sorry to those whom i throw my nasty temper to. such nonsense spamming on my blog, weird and crazy people on friendster who send me fucking insulting messages and blah. it's bothering me so much that i really cant take it any further. *feels like strangling some people and screams out loud.*

CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE IS JUST TOMORROW !!

man, time flies. it seemed like it was the reopening of school just yesterday. oh man, and i overspent too much on shopping this year. far too much. and i do not think i'll be wearing all of them, cause i saw some other new tops and dresses again when i went out the other time. and i dont get to buy it because i spent too much! ))): i'm very fickle minded, i cant decide what clothes exactly i want. i buy, sees another design and i want to buy again. haha, i cant control my money but i cant stop myself either. BOOHOO.

random:
probably one of the greatest gift god gave me was to know my princesses and to have them beside me whenever i needed them.

(:

pictures:

sometimes i wanted so badly to hug you tighly and tell you how much i want to bring the both of us back.

2008-02-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

alright, post removed as clarifications and apology was done..

end of story for that particular matter,oh well..

HAH.

and more thing:

THAT FUCKING SPAMMER, WEIJUN:

i do not bother to scold you on my post cause i feel it's a waste of my time. you do not even fit to be in post. if you are unhappy with me,

you add me at amanda_2192@hotmail.com and we talk.

or else, i welcome you to chungcheng high yishun , we meet and we'll talk. and before that, i intend to give you a tight slap off your face you sucker.

i'll never be on bed with you and even if i do, the person will be my boyfriend or my husband. NOT YOU, DUMBFUCK.

and if you're too horny, you can do 3 things:

suck your father's cork

OR

masturbate

OR

just go geylang and fuck all the prostitutes there.

and dont be jealous i have a good relationship with mingshuang and you cant, so just shut the fuck up.

dont try to be a retarded asshole and put a fake name and telephone number.

2008-01-29T18:01:00.000+08:00

if you bring me to this world in the first place to see me suffer,
taking all beautiful things away from me,
leaving me with nothing,
i wont let you off one day.
you deserve the way i treated you.
i hate you, yes i do.
i'm becoming a scary person.
and thats because that is what i learnt from you.
i'll tell you,
one day, just one day,
retribution will befall on you.

xoxo
amanda

2008-01-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

oh fuck it, it aint my business. dont put me in this lame matter. yes, no doubts , it is absolutely LAME . and duh, i'm pissed off with it.

yoketing and ruting are sleeping at my house now. they do look like pigs. haha, i'll capture a picture of them soon. :D

hope the scar on my nose heals soon. it has a big BIG cross right at the middle of my nose. and yes, obviously it is very ugly. cant be helped. saw my whitehead when i was looking at the mirror last night, my itchy hands cant help but squeeze it. and so i did, and yeap, it turned out horrible. and skin of my nose came out, the whole thing is just swollen now. disastrous face now.

thus, this happens:

2 weeks = no makeup = no town = no shopping = save money.

i realized my blog has become more and more emo. oh well... i dont know why either. no good things this month. bad hair, bad skin, bad day, everything wrong. very mentally tired. and yes, amanda needs a break now. i do need a good sleep one day, off my handphone, cut off my connections, ignore those lame and nonsensical matters and just stay at home for the whole day.

continue pressing me and giving me stress and i may go berserk and kill someone one day.

oh man, just go away. whatsoever, just take it that you guys suck.

2008-01-24T19:58:00.000+08:00

oh yeap, change in blog song too.

Yes one dose of me will have you addicted
To know me is to love me I handle mah business
Any City any town, touch down I do my thing
I'm a hustler baby I provide by any means
I'm a great conversationist, you should know what I'm about
When you look at me baby you should see a way out
Out the hood, out the drama, out the Bentley that's on
Out the headache an stress you done been through before

It's only been three months an I already got it bad
So hood that I keep on coming back
My girlfriend's telling me I don't know how to act
But I'm telling them baby bye fall back
He's so good an he knows how to love me
But so hood an he's so heavy in the streets
He's my dude and you better get used to things
And I don't care what you say about me
They say

That he does it with the best, runs it in the west
Tatted on his chest (uh huh)
I like it (so what), I like it
And they say (that he's gonna hurt me)
Just wait and see (but they don't know me)
'cause I am what he wants his girl and I love it

I can't leave 'em alone
I tried that good boy game
But the dope boy's turning me on
It's just that he know what I want
So bad, I love that, I can't leave 'em alone
I can't leave 'em alone
I tried that game
But the dope boy's turning me on
It's just that he know what I want
So bad, I love that, I can't leave 'em alone

So when I had a good guy he didn't do that much for me
Tried to be hard but that he could never be
Always tell me that no one could compare to me
But couldn't matter when other guy was staring at me
Now the time plays back so everyone could look at me
From the A to hill up in Beverly
He's so fly that he knows how to carry me
First class when they talk we don't hear what they say

That he does it with the best, runs it in the west
Tatted on his chest (uh huh)
I like it (so what), I like it
And they say (that he's gonna hurt me)
Just wait and see (but they don't know me)
'cause I am what he wants his girl and I love it (ooohh)

I can't leave 'em alone
I tried that good boy game
But the dope boy's turning me on
It's just that he know what I want
So bad, I love that, I can't leave 'em alone
I can't leave 'em alone
I tried that game
But the dope boy's turning me on
It's just that he know what I want
So bad, I love that, I can't leave 'em alone

The more I get the more my ambition tells there more
I'll move an A for that girl I'll move ahead on that boy
Then I flip that (double up) kick back (cuddle up)
Your friends try to confuse but you know what
My intentions are good, I can't help it I'm hood
I wouldn't change if I could, you shouldn't tell me I should
Baby you should take me as I am
An be happy you're my girl 'cause I'm happy I'm your man

If he gets caught, it just takes one call
I'll come running, boy I promise I will be there for you
All my heart it belongs to you
I can't lose you, boy I just can't leave you alone

I can't leave 'em alone
I tried that good boy game
But the dope boy's turning me on
It's just that he know what I want
So bad, I love that, I can't leave 'em alone
I can't leave 'em alone
I tried that game
But the dope boy's turning me on
It's just that he know what I want
So bad, I love that, I can't leave 'em alone

ciara feat 50 cent - cant leave him alone

2008-01-24T19:22:00.000+08:00

oh god, i'm really tired. just came back from school and my back is aching sooooo badly.anyway, release of 'O' levels results today. and my 5 princesses got back their mother tongue results. and they cried so badly ....

because they all scored an A. haha. congratulations bitches. well done. (: and because of that, i'll get 2 free meals, one from grace and another from meiling. :D ahaha.

i see tears of joy and some people crying so badly because of their poor results. oh man, i do feel really really stressed up. ): i do not want to cry when i get my results. or maybe, even if i do. tears of joy for heaven sake. O levels is like 9 months away and i already start to feel nervous. OMFG, i cant imagine what will happen if i really do badly...

probably tonight, the news will be reporting about a suicidal case on a O level student or something. hah.

although i am not sleeping in class, skipping class , does and hands in my homework on time now. i do feel that nothing is getting in my brains. and i need a tutor to teach me maths and science badly. my mother feels i need not tuition so she isn going to pay any tuition fees for me. she feels it's a waste of her money. *rolls eyes* oh, whatsoever.

i been going shopping far too much lately. and i guess i've spent about $500-600 on clothings, bags this month. and i simply cant control myself. BOOHOO. so here i am, advertising for my blogshop people.

AVENUE-OFLOVE.BLOGSPOT.COM

BRAND NEW NICE/ SEXY DRESSES , TOPS SELLING THERE.
IF SECOND HAND, WORRYS NOT, IT'S STILL IN PERFECT CONDITION. (:
PRICES CAN BE NEGOTIATE IF YOU ARE NICE.

do support girls, cause there are a number of dresses i bought in impulse just because i feel it's nice. dont let me put in my wardrobe and let my brand new nice dresses rot. it's simply a waste. haha.

some activities in school this and last week:

i aint going to blog about where and what happen. it's very boring and i'm totally not to blog about it either.

oh fuck, my fringe is still short and UGLY. )):

retribution i guess?

2008-01-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

two words from me to you,
disappointment, anger
and that saturday is gonna be the last time, you hopeless jerk.
so not worth it.
'foolishness'
the only word to describe myself.

2008-01-14T19:18:00.000+08:00

I'M IN SUCH GOOD MOOD TODAY PEOPLE. (:

so, i shall share and lame and yet hilarious( i think, oh, whatsoever.if you dont think so.i find it funny so you better agree with it. haha.) short video clip. NOW...

allow me...

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PRESENTING...

2008 MOST DISGUSTING AND LAME GAY COUPLE IN 4d'08....

BENJAMIN CHEAH AND ONG JUNHE....

haha, me and yoketing seriously have nothing better to do, so we took a video of them. but benjamin is insane today. he is acting like a guy who just ran out of the mental hospital. -.- trying to seduce junhe when junhe has seriously 0% sex appeal as a girl.. haha, but junhe is hot, as a hunk probably. :/

dont get angry or offended guys, we're just playing. and you guys are cute alright. HAHA.

anyway, enough of my lame nonsense.

fnn coursework is killing me!! ): i dont know what the fuck to write for the stupid task analysis thing. and come to think of it, i got a feeling i will flunk the whole of my examinations. oh god bless.

gtg people.off to do my food and nutrition coursework.
i will update more reallyyyyy soon.
cause i guess i will be really busy after today until next week probably?

love you princesses! (:

2008-01-13T21:48:00.000+08:00

i dont have the strong feeling i used to when i see you now,
it's feels so cold now.
probably,
it's really gone...

2008-01-12T20:19:00.001+08:00

HELLOOOOOO!

i do sound very enthusiastic dont i? haha. thats because i'm boreddddddd.

anyway, went to nanyang polytechnic open house today with ruting and meiling. it was a sudden decision anyway. since i was rotting badly at home, decided to go out.

i was considering between the courses of accountancy (business) and food science. aha. i was more interested in accountancy cause if seems to wider range of jobs in the industry. blah blah blah. unfortunately, my mathematics suck like fuck. haha. i scored like 28 marks over 100 for my end year last year. so it's a little lame if i were to tell people i wanted to focus on something related to maths. -.-

and for food science, is just because i take food and nutrition as a subject now, i do not want to waste it. so probably i could just make use of it and study that, which would make my life much easier.

ahhh, i dont know. it's super hard to decide.

i do want to graduate from a university. no matter what it takes. private university or what, i'm gonna get a degree. (so dont look down on me you fools and think i'm just gonna graduate from a poly. ) i do not want to die in the working industry next time. i do want a good life. i want lots of money. $-$ haha.

and speaking of money, MY PAY IS STILL NOT IN YET.

like what the fuck? hello? it has been 14 days...

and it's 2 weeks. and is it THAT freaking difficult to send a cheque to me?! i work like soooo tiring everyday during the holidays with a pay of just $5 per hour and the cant just pay me $850?! -.- your company is earning fucking big bucks and they cant just give their workers their pay on time. what if i do have a family? my family would have died of hunger for 14 days alright.. and i have to see your customer's fulgy faces everyday and i cant my money. dont think because you employed me thru me my aunt and you can delay me pay. _l_ man.

come straight to the point, I CANT DO MY SHOPPING WITHOUT MONEY.

and you know what? it sucks. seriously, it does.

urgh, oh well.

had trouble taking a picture with ruting today and finally after several tries, it's done.

an example:

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finally done. (:

and my fringe do look horrible, so is my flabby arms... and tummy... and legs....

i do want a toned body. ):

better start to get exercising soon. i've been eating too much recently. haha.

amanda is officially on a diet. give some moral support my princesses and people.dont tempt me with oily food and fast food my princesses. HAHAHA. (:

2008-01-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

aha people, back.

suddenly i have a loss of interest for blogging. after since school reopen i find there's absolutely nothing interesting to blog about. cause my life these days are nothing but a drag with more and more misery and stuffs i aint hoping to happen. i'm starting to sound like a emo freak and a pessimistic. -.- but it's true okay. i've been waiting for people smses and BOOHOO, there was N-O-N-E, at all. ): my fringe thingy again. i shall not whine about it again. and now, war among my family practically EVERYDAY. (and it do sucks like fuck.)

oh man, big fuck to everything.

and moreover, this year is like my O levels and i do feel pressure everyday. i do not have enough time to blog as whenever i reach home and finish my homework, i would just feel like sleeping. god dam it tired, and mentally tired too. i'm tired of quarrellings, it's a waste of my time. so whats is there even to blog about?

and obviously, i wont blog about what happen in school either, cause i bet you guy will be falling asleep if i do.because, it would be like :

today, i woke up at whatsoever time, brushed my teeth, waited for bus and have whatsoever lesson. ate this and that for recess. had geography and history lesson blah blah blah. and continues like it's nobody's businesses.

god, that would be freaking boringggg. -.- i wonder who would even view my blog if i would to blog like that. haha. oh well, probably one day i will blog like that and bored you people to death. aha.

i do feel my life is in a mess now. studies, relationships, family stuff and some personal stuffs. BOOHOO. and i am lack of a good night sleep. i been missing the holidays whereby i can sleep for the whole morning, wake up go to work or play and come home to sleep. haha, i do treat my home as a resort. cause basically, i do not interact with my mother cause our personalities clash. and my father comes home really late and night. i do not share my life with my parents either, so it's like a resort but just that i have to see my mother's LOVELY face everyday, which pisses me off all the time.

she is really nice to me at times, and when does. it will only be when she needs my help, borrow money from me ( and she NEVER returns to me * rolls eyes* ) , takes my money or take my posb card. or else, she will practically be screaming her head off me everyday unless when she is really really inn a good mood which happens only like once in every 365 days.

oh well, i aint gonna blog about my mother or my family, or i will complain like fucking shit in this post. haha.

anyway, pictures with my bitches ( i look super shag and horrible. -.-) :

oh well, bye for now. (:

2008-01-09T18:51:00.000+08:00

my fringe is so short! )))))))): i tried convincing myself that it will grow real soon but this time it aint helping. i'm getting depressed already. )))))): *screams* there goes my precious hair. yoke ting says putting mayonnaise will helping in the growing of hair but i wont be THAT desperate to do such gross thing. *vomits* haha. but i'll think of something to do with my fringe. extend it, rebond it or whatsoever cause it kinda driving me nuts.i complain about it after since i cut my fringe. the poor 6 ladies have been hearing my saying about it. i do pity their ears. i'm sorry my dears. BOOHOO. i need a hug right now. i've been so upset about my fringe these days... )): i know, i'm very whiny. so just bear with it.

anyway...

HAD MY FACIAL FINALLY YESTERDAY! :D

muhahahaha. bet you're gonna be god dam it jealous. haha. went to claire's aunt facial shop. was recommended by her and after the facial, i felt it was pretty good and her aunt is super nice and friendly. and the best part is, i get a 2 hour facial for just $28. fucking cheap!! (: so although my face looks so red an swollen now, probably in 2 to 3 days time, it be FLAWLESS. muhahaha. * evil laughter* anyone here who wants to go for a facial could probably try that. it's located at kathib central. the shop is : HOUSE OF BELLE BEAUTY.

at least that cheered me up a little. too many bad things has been happening these few days. hope something good would happen after soooo much unhappy stuff. hah, i'm start to think of the positive side already.

BUT BUT BUT.

no pictures for 1 month, until my fringe has grown back. so my posts are going to be very very wordy. haha.

off for now people. (:

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thought about it,and i've decided remove that particular part on this post.i was wanting to tell you things yesterday but i dont even think you even bother. oh well. you aint proving me what i'm really hoping for. probably, i do think too well of you. if you think what i think about you aint true, then prove it to me.

2008-01-07T20:07:00.000+08:00

ever ever after by carrie underwood.

ever ever after? i hope.
fairytales, i believe.

i suddenly do feel i want to be in a fairytale. i do want to have ever ever after. i changed, i do feel it now. maybe someone is right, i aint as strong i claim. i told him i do not need a man. he told me that was bullshit and iargued with him and stayed strong on my stand. but now probably not. i feel weak suddenly, tired of it already. i feel like breaking down now. i feel like crying and screaming my head off. but i dont know whats the fucking freaking reason.i really dont.it feels like suicidal.

fuckshit.guys are jerks. they bring the sweetest and the worst nightmare to every woman.

absolutely contradicting of me today. i do not even get it clear what i am thinking.

2008-01-06T20:17:00.000+08:00

hahaha, i have people who dislikes me but actually bothers to tag at my blog. cool.

i'm feeling soooo happy today!! haha. i went for my dental appointment today and my doctor told me i can have my braces removed in 2-3 months time!! muhahahaha. i'm so looking forward to that day. mannnn, on this day on 2007 was the first time i had my braces on. and i still remember how hard it to me to even to bite my teeth together. and the worst was i tried ordering a plate of noodles during recess the very next day and after 30 mins, the amount of food was still left the same. -.- pathetic like fuck. haha. i was not allowed to eat starchy food like yellow noddles and not allowed to bite an apple. -.-

oh well, i didn really care. haha. just that i really stop eating yellow noodles and now i really dislike it. it's kinda weird too. i start liking food like tomatoes, carrot and dislike fried food (esp MCDONALS) after i had my braces on. pretty weird eh? haha, but it's good too. it helps me to lose weight. :D

anyway, the first 3 days of school was pretty good. i didn not skip lessons, often go to the toilet and i didn not sleep in class. haha. hope i can still stick to my new year resolutions and maintain that.and all of a sudden, i do feel i love school. all thanks to my pretty and lovable 6 bitches. (:

2008-01-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

okay, i' m backkkkkk people! (:

haha, i thought of posting : BE RIGHT BACK AFTER O LEVELS.
BUT, i thought of it and i find it kinda retarded. haha. and since i so boreddddddd, i shall blog.

school is seriously a drag. man, supplementary and remedial lessons everyday after school to about 5. and CCA now is from 3.30 to 6.30 pm. oh, fuck that principal. he must well just extend school hours instead of making himself sound so nice and say its extra lessons to help us. (cause practically, the whole level has to go the so call extra lessons.) *rolls eyes*

i need motivation people!!

i bought a new bag pack for myself today at bugis cause probably the last thing i would ever do now is to use back my old handbag as my school bag.the books are like freaking heavy and my shoulders are like breaking apart. -.- maybe i should have a boyfriend who in charges of helping me carrying my school bag. and that would be so cool. haha.

mannnn, thinking O levels is this year makes me feel kinda pressurized. every teacher comes in and nags about O level exams and blah blah. BOOHOO.

alright alright,
i do not want to talk about this topic.its boringgggg. haha,

MY FACIAL APPOINTMENT IS FINALLY COMING. :D muahahaha. -.-

anyway, happy belated birthday to my bitch CHUA RUTING.

we love you ruting. (:

and ending with my camwhoring picture on 31st dec 07 celebration of new year with zixiang and the other guys. NICE celebration man. hahaha.

a new year, a fresh start. (:

2007-12-31T13:15:00.000+08:00

<3

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

say good bye to 2007 and hello to 2008. man, O levels next year. god dam it. i hate it. got to work really hard next year. say good bye to all the fun until O levels are over. but it's alright, i shall force myself to work really hard and play really hard later. finally yesterday was my last day of work. gonna miss the aunties and people there.

school's reopening soon, kinda looking forward to it.

2007-12-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE! (:

i am feeling so happy today. hahaha. today is my off day and met up with my girls at causeway. fuck shit. i miss them like crazy and i finally get to see them. muahahahaha. and my grace is back from malaysia. i'm really missing her badly. ):

christmas. oh well. i didn really celebrate this year cause there's work, work and more WORK. )))): but it's alright, i get a few nice christmas gifts. :D

a $300+ watch from my cousin $_$ , 5 boxes of chocolates from my working friends, a piggy bank from the exchange gift thing and a skincare product thing from my aunt. haha.

but but but,

i didn get a chance to go town to see the christmas decorations there this year. )))))): pathetic isn it? how sad.

i hoping to celebrate new year since dont get to celebrate christmas this year.

*hints* *hints*

haha, so CHUA RUTING , YIM YOKETING AND TAN XIN EN GRACE. YOU GIRLS/BITCHES BETTER KNOW WHAT TO DO ON THE 31st OF DEC EH!

I DONT WANT A LONEY NEW YEAR.

hahahaha.

(:

i'm very bad i know, but you girls will still love me. muahahaha.

okay, i am crazy. -.-

alright alright, so....

MERRY CHRISTMAS ONCE AGAIN!